An Exercise In Trivial Pursuits

Fatshion, Food & Frivolities – Life in Las Vegas & Singapore


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Fat-shionista #604

Being frivolous is getting more difficult when there are so many issues in your life you can’t take lightly. The point of this blog is to document life’s more trivial pursuits and instead there are so many ranty-tanty things I would like to write about, so let me try this again. Here’s something silly that I threw together about a week ago.

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What I’m wearing:

Top: Blue ribbed tank from OLD NAVY

Outerwear: Mustard yellow chiffon jacket from a nonameshop in Far East Plaza

Accessories: Pink/Blue wooden bead necklace from FOREVER21

Bottom: Multi-coloured print maxi skirt from WET SEAL

Footwear:Dark taupe moto boots from MADDEN GIRL
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Fat-shionista #603

If you’re following me on either Twitter or Instagram, you’d know that in the last week or so, our lives had been turned upside down. Our beloved Max the Maximum Dog died very suddenly following an emergency stomach surgery for bloat. It was supposed to be a simple operation but they kept having to slice him open and he passed from multiple organ failure within 5 days. We’ve been in shock and mourning. He was happy and healthy, and he thoroughly enjoyed life with us so it’s just been so traumatic for us to lose him so suddenly.

Then a few days after he passed, we also had to pull ourselves together because we had some friends come visit and stayed with us for 5 days. They were pretty good guests who basically took care of themselves but I also felt bad if we appeared to be Debbie Downers.

I feel really awful for T who’s been so distraught. Max was his best friend and he was willing to go all out to save him – sell the house to raise money, whatever. But eventually, despite spending more than what we did when Max had cancer, we couldn’t save him. He just never regained consciousness. We are only relieved that we didn’t have to make the call to put him down, we fought for him till the end.

Also, after more than a week of the launch of T’s game Axiom Verge, we still haven’t celebrated. While he’s not rich and famous yet, the game broke-even within hours of its launch on Day 1. He deserves all the happiness and everything is just bad timing. He’s a simple and modest man who’s worked really hard alone for the last 5 years to get this game completed. The universe is just so cruel.

Today, we went out to Olive Garden for lunch with a giftcard my MIL sent us for EASTER. It was nice to get him out of the house, take a nice scenic drive past Red Rock Canyon and also make a detour to Cactus Joe’s on the way home after lunch. If you follow him on Twitter, please send him some kind words of encouragement and buy his game or game soundtrack to support his work.

Anyway, this is what I wore today: 

Top: Grey & Pink polkadotted tank from OLD NAVY

Outerwear: Grey marled moto jacket from ADIDAS

Accessories: Lilac acrylic necklace and earrings from H&M

Leggings: Grey & Black triangle graphic print fold-over yoga pants from OLD NAVY

Footwear: Dark beige moto boots from MADDEN GIRL


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Mama Chronicles: 6 things I’ve learnt about being pregnant

1. My body is no longer mine

Other than the fact that it’s changing shape, growing a human does strange things to your physiology. For me, the scariest is how my pancreas started shutting down or stopped working like it should. I became insulin-deficient and also suffer from hypoglycemic shock – the kind where I start shaking, start becoming incoherent and require chewing of glucose tablets. If I faint or blackout, I not only risk physically hurting myself if I hit something but oxygen to my foetus would be cut off. I’ve been told it’s the pregnancy hormones that take over and things can get crazier as the pregnancy progresses.

I have also willingly become a human pin-cushion and at one point, was going in and out of clinics several times a week (for several weeks in a row) to get my blood drawn for tests. I now stick needles in myself 6-8 times daily. Forget about the pregnancy glow and how pregnant mamas should eat everything they crave because they’re eating for two. I struggle on a daily basis to eat and live properly on a very basic level. This blog used to be frivolous and I really enjoyed being all about “hey! This is what I’m wearing today” but you know, when you’re obsessed about just getting medication inside you at appropriate intervals several times a day, that’s the last thing on your mind.

These days, I look like I have black inky fingers all the time, but they’re actually bruises from the needles. Bruises also appear alongside red welts around my belly when I hit some capillaries by accident when giving myself a shot. T’s a sweetie pie but also a pragmatist and not exactly the smoothest guy around. He would sing to me while trying to coax me to stick the needles in BUT he would also tell me straight up “if you don’t, our baby will die. You just have to do it.” And while I still struggle to, I do it. Because my body is no longer mine.

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2. Wonky emotions, alert!!

More than ever, my emotions run amok. Mood swings, irrational crying episodes. You name it, I’ve got it. Before we got married, T already knew I cry so well. But each time I get pregnant, he braces himself for the craziness that ensues. Our dog is so cute – cry. Why did I fall off the stationary bike – angry. This food is so delicious – cry. Why am I eating toilet paper – cry… angry… cry… It’s true. I ate toilet paper (but that was the last pregnancy) and I couldn’t stop myself even though I knew it’s crazy, so I just kept crying and got really furious with myself all at once. It’s nuts but a story for another time. Maybe.

With a history of depression, my perinatologist has advised that I should seek help if I feel like I need it. Despite what you might think, doctors feel that in general the benefits of psych meds outweigh the harm in this case. I’m lucky that T works from home so he’s around me all the time. For some unexplained reason (pregnancy hormones obviously), I refused to get out of the car for our OBGYN appointment last week. I was suddenly overwhelmed with the fear that they will give us bad news again and our baby is dead. I remember telling T that maybe if I don’t get out, we’ll never know. Like Schrodinger’s cat, I said. I would rather carry around a dead foetus than have to digest another tragedy. It was irrational. I can see that after the episode was over but my judgement was so clouded at that moment, it was rather frightening.

Also I’ve had friends with postpartum depression and I know how real it gets. So even if we manage to survive the pregnancy, post-delivery is another battle that might await us.

3. Pregnancy Brains is REAL

T read somewhere that pregnant women’s brains shrink. Have no idea if that is true but in general, I feel like my body is being overworked so resources are spread thin. Did you watch that episode of How I Met Your Mother where Lily found a melted ice cube tray in her handbag? I lose concentration very easily and my short term memory is fuzzy. Just 2 weeks ago, I came home and hunted for 4 bottles of hand soap I distinctively purchased. Checked the receipt and it was there. I remember being handed all my groceries and sundries, walking to the car, unloading everything from the supermarket trolley… and everything was a blur after that. I seriously don’t even remember driving home.

4. The Bane of Bowel movements

Okay, not just bowel movements but in general, excretion of waste. I pee every 15 minutes or so but I rarely poop. One night, T heard me go into the loo and he fell asleep while I was halfway through my pee. When he regained consciousness, I was still peeing the same pee. And upon my return to bed, he remarked “Wow! That was a super long one!”. Yup! They tend to be.

Also about 2 months ago, I had to do this test where I was required to collect 24hrs worth of all the pee that came out of me – the clinic gave me a gallon jug and a collection trough, I had so much pee within the 24-hr period that I had to throw the last few away because the jug was full before the 24 hours were up. Obvious conclusion: I pee more than a gallon worth a day.

On the flip side, pregnancy hormones slows down your digestive system and everything becomes super sluggish. What this means is, while my IBS meant that diarrhoea was commonplace in my life previously, I now barely move my bowels even with a fibre supplement, mild laxative AND stool softener. I do a happy jig and proudly announce to my poor husband whenever I get to poop (which is once every 3-4 days) AND I get insanely jealous when he gets to go while I don’t.

5. Pregnant women get Electrocuted Vagina (or Lightning crotch)

When I first experienced it, I yelped and screamed for T. I thought I was dying. Actually, a lot of pregnancy symptoms made me think I was having a stroke or dying. I described it as electric shocks in my lady parts and looked it up. Other people call it lightning crotch. IT IS A THING!! OH MY GOD! If you’ve had laser hair removal, you’ll know the stinging sensation and it is SO ANNOYINGLY UNCOMFORTABLE in a super sensitive area! I started experiencing this towards the end of my 1st trimester – which apparently is unusual, so I thought it was something else until the doctor said it’s normal.

So I’ve learnt that lighting crotch is related to your nerves being pinched and at a later stage, it’s the baby lying at some weird angle. I started feeling something like popcorn popping inside me about 2 weeks ago and I thought it was bad gas initially. The ultrasound however confirmed that we’ve got a super active baby. We’ve had 3 ultrasounds now and in the last 2, he was kicking and flipping and squirming – he looked like he was headbanging and doing sit-ups (I swear that’s what it looks like). I can only imagine that lightning crotch is going to get worse for me as he gets bigger.

6. It should be called All Day Sickness 

Forget the misnomer Morning Sickness. With all my pregnancies, I was throwing up all day and I typically lose about 5kgs in the first trimester. I carry those free doggie poop bags I collect from the streets and they are always in my pockets, handbag, the car, night stand etc. Somewhere in the middle of January, it got so bad that I actually lost my voice. The bile scratched up my throat so much that I was hoarse and could barely speak. I’m further along in my pregnancy than I’ve ever been now, and it appears to have stopped. “They” whoever they are, say that it usually ends in the 1st trimester. It took me a few weeks longer than that but I haven’t had an episode for a while now. Fingers crossed. Dry heaving maybe once or twice but no actual purging.

This post was actually called “10 things” but I have forgotten what I want to say (see point 3: Pregnancy Brains). Hahaha!

With all of that said, I want people to rest assured that I’m definitely not alone in experiencing these challenges and pregnancy is not a breeze in general.  I’m not complaining and it is, what it is. I’ve learnt that all pregnant women go through a combination of different issues and even if you think you’re so special and unique, you’re most probably not, so don’t be afraid to seek a support group for help – unless you’re like Daffyd Thomas in Little Britain and enjoy it that way.


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Fat-shionista #602

I’ve been covering my legs very often because the weather has been cold. I rotate between leggings and jeans but I suspect shorts would be thrown into the mix soon since the weather is warming up. Spring is so lovely here in Vegas!  

 

What I’m wearing today:

Top: Blue tanktop from OLD NAVY

Outwear: Grey hoodie from OLD NAVY

Accessories: Plastic airplanes necklace (gift from Tamares)

Bottom: Grey & White printed leggings from OLD NAVY

Footwear: Pink glitter sneakers from CONVERSE 

 


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Fat-shionista #601

I’ve been trying out this new look without the eyeliner and if you’ve been following me on Instagram, you’d probably have seen it. I ran out of my favourite Maybelline eyeliner and they don’t sell it in the US! I’ve tried similar ones – fine, felt tip and black, but it’s just not the same so I’m just trying to do without it until my new supply comes in when my family comes and visit next…   

What I’m wearing today:

Outerwear: Red plaid shirt from H&M

Top: Crimson tank top from OLD NAVY

Accessories: Crochet rocket pop brooch from TWINKIECHAN; Set of 4 acrylic bangles from PRIMARK

Leggings: Grey/Black geometric print leggings from OLD NAVY

Footwear: Brown bow-tie ballet flats from OLD NAVY


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Fat-shionista #600

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Today’s lab work was easy. We were in and out of the clinic within an hour. It was really crowded when we got there and all the seats in the waiting room were taken, so I was really surprised it got to my turn so quickly. I was also glad the nurse taking my blood samples was quick too! 1 needle and 3 vials. No retry needed. Very often, I have to give both inner elbows and also the back of one of my hands. Been told repeatedly how fine my veins are. Also I’ve had blood spurt out from a vein, only then to stop flowing completely. So with the luck I got today, I’m very thankful and it put me in a good mood. The little things count when times are dreary, you know?

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What I’m wearing today:

Top: Black & white striped tank from OLD NAVY

Outerwear: Mint green cardigan from OLD NAVY

Leggings: Grey leggings from OLD NAVY

Accessories: Pink frosted sugar cookie brooch from TWINKIE CHAN

Footwear: Dark Taupe moto boots from MADDEN GIRL


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Fat-shionista #599

This is just a short post. T took these photos while we were at The Cupcakery in Henderson. They have sugar-free cupcakes and that meant that I could have one today! Life of a carb/sugar-counting diabetic, you know?

I really like my maxi skirt. Probably not the best angle to see it, since my husband is way taller than I am. Pity Wet Seal filed for bankruptcy recently. I have several pieces from there that I really like. Maybe I’ll document them soon.

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What I’m wearing today:

Top: Grey tank top from OLD NAVY (it really is the perfect tank in my opinion)

Outerwear: Black & white polkadotted long cardigan from H&M

Accessories: Bright pink bauble statement necklace from FOSSIL (my go-to accessory as you might already have figured)

Bag: Pink & Beige HORSESHOE COVE magazine tote from KATE SPADE

Bottom: Multi-coloured print maxi skirt from WET SEAL

Footwear: Dark taupe moto boots from MADDEN GIRL


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Fat-shionista #598

This used to be something I do for fun because it’s so frivolous, it makes life a little less mundane. But with the recent developments with health issues, dressing up and documenting what I’m wearing has taken a back seat. While I’m not bleeding to death or suffering severe pains, there is just a significant enough discomfort for me to avoid wearing more than jumpers and leggings. It’s been a little harder to stick that smile on for the camera too.

But I’m not one to allow myself to wallow too long and to some extent, I find it rather self-indulgent too. So while I go get my blood drawn again for the 3rd time in 2 weeks for more lab work, I kinda dressed up for it today.

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What I’m wearing today:

Dress: Green/Navy Floral Silhouette Dress from Old Navy

Accessories: Black & yellow geometric acrylic statement necklace from H&M; Natural bamboo weave bangle from Island Shop International

Leggings: Black cropped leggings from Old Navy

Footwear: Tan Bow-Tie Ballet Flats from Old Navy

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Fat-shionista #597

So my family left last Wednesday morning and it’s been a week since they’ve been gone. Never gets any easier. I’ve washed their dirty clothes and bedlinens but I’ve left them untouched in the guest bedrooms. Basically trying not to reset the rooms so that I can hold on as long as I can. It’s been so quiet and I’ve been all mopey. Save for a short trip to the grocery store and post office, I haven’t been out all week until today. T and I went to Benjarong – a thai restaurant near our house. So yay! Not in sad leggings and baggy sweatshirts today.

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What I’m wearing today:

Dress: Black & White floral print 3/4 sleeve dress from OLD NAVY

Outerwear: Olive green pea coat from FRENCH CONNECTION

Accessories: Lilac and gold statement necklace from H&M

Bag: Pink & Beige HORSESHOE COVE MAGAZINE TOTE from KATE SPADE

Leggings: Bright pink leggings from BETSEY JOHNSON

Footwear: Dark Taupe moto boots from MADDEN GIRL

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Fat-shionista #596

 

IMG_0228The weather in Las Vegas today was awesome! Just 2 days ago on New Year’s Eve, we had a super cold front and it snowed! Where we lived, there were only flurries but other parts of the valley experienced heavier fall. And that was the day we went to the Premium Outlet North where all the shops are not connected and you had to walk in the open. My mum and sisters were bundled up with scarves, gloves and beanies! Today however, it was just warm enough to get away with a jumper and a scarf – it was about 6 degC and if you’re in the sun, it’s totally toasty.

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What I’m wearing today:

Top: Grey HEART & SOUL jumper from OLD NAVY

Accessories: Brown pleather belt from STEVE MADDEN; Pink & purple floral barrettes from H&M; Purple scarf with sequins from DELIA*S

Bag: Pink EMERALD AVENUE AMY crossbody bag from KATE SPADE

Footwear: Grey MAIA boat shoes from LeBunny Bleu

A big thank you to the kind people at LeBunny Bleu for these shoes! Do check out their new arrivals!

 

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